First, what you should know about me...
About a decade ago, I found myself praying for something I didn't really want...
God's Will — that it be done — and (heart pounding, breath held) that I agree to it. I could barely think the words of this short yet ego-shattering prayer, let alone say them out loud. Yet, something in me - what I kiddingly call the darn earnest part - felt a growing conviction to ask and to follow.
I soon learned that something else was going on with me. Cancer. A melanoma in my left thigh diagnosed just a few months later. Even though it was caught early, extreme anxiety and existential crisis ensued.
Was this God's Will? You know, that scary, suffering stuff I was steeling myself against — I mean, praying for. A grit your teeth sort of going along with it was the best my self-sufficient self could muster up at the time. The cancer diagnosis revealed among other things that my fear of death was matched only by my fear of life. Hidden beneath my sunny exterior and can-do spirit was a gaping hole in my gut where things like courage and trust are supposed to go.
My problem wasn't just with God's will. It was also with my own.
If you're religious, you may think that my personal will just needed to submit to God's. My will has been bent, to be sure, but not only in the way you might expect. I've been stretched, strengthened, rounded out ... like I was being remade. (Personally universal. I know now that I was being molded. Molded into ... the image and likeness of God.
This is not some heretical aspiration of my own. It's the inherent Plan and potential I realized is being asked of me ... and of all of us. To be what we were meant to be.
"God created human beings; he created them godlike, Reflecting God’s nature." — Genesis 1:27 (The Message)
It's taken me 10 years to more fully grasp what this really means. That:
There is a Universal Plan for Your Personal Fulfillment and Mine — and THIS is God's (Good) Will.
If you'd like to know, love and be what you fully and fundamentally are — to be You at Heart — I'd love to share with you what I've learned and experienced. Please join me for a short overview.